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| Strenght for a mother of three! E-Mail: (Hidden email address) Category: Home and Family 3/21/2010 11:01 PM I have always knew about the lord I just dont have a relationship with him wich I am in desprate need of. I have been married, deviorced, gone thru a miscarage, 3 births and with the man who says he loves me but treats me as nothing...lower then that, yet thinks he is the best thing for me. I have tryed over and over again to get him out of my life but yet he sits there looking at me knowing I dont want him. I truly feel as if he finds enjoyment in my suffering. I do not want my three kids looking at our relationship and thinking that this is "love" it is far from so. I am in love with who I want him to be and who he was. I have prayed over and over for Gods help and one day he did, we had a fight and he left. One month after our third child was born he just flew to another island for 6 months and I took this as an answered prayer. I got our divorce finalized and he was on my door step asking for yet another chance. Nothing has changed and I dont know why hes here. I know I am a strong woman everyone who knows me knows that, but I just constantly pray for god to keep me strong for my kids, and for someone out there to help me to find a way out. This relationship is no good for me, him or our children. I feel as if Im alwasy pertecting them from him and they just love him with all their might! I teach them about god and they dont understand their fathers choices. My children are my focus and Im so hurt that they are hurt. I dont ever have a time to break down n cry, to just let go of my fustration...Im always required to be strong. Because of this I need more strength...It is not an option for me, its required really. So if you could please keep me in prayer. Thank you |